It’s weird isn’t it? When we take our make-up off, put our hair in that bun, get PJ’s on and climb into bed ready to sleep – and then your mind goes into overdrive.
Every. Single. Night.
They say this happens more when you watch TV, or if you’re on electronics, but who knows whats true and what isn’t in 2019..
So, after being diagnosed with anxiety months ago and insomnia this week, it’s clearly time to start my new midnight blog idea – because lets be honest here – I’m not going to go to sleep, so we may as well make this entire thing productive and useful right?
I have absolutely no idea what these themes or subjects are going to be, literally, whatever pops into my head if i’m wide awake. – So these will either go fab, or be absolutely awful, but hey! Let’s see I guess?!
So here goes –
Scrolling through instagram (as usual) I came across this quote –
“Next Year I’m Being Selfish. This Years Made Me Realise That Being Too Nice To People Gets You No Where In This Life.”
True or false statement? – Is it okay to become more selfish?
If i’ve learnt anything over the last few weeks it’s that the answer is absolutely yes. I’ve learnt how important it is to put yourself FIRST. Stand your ground and have your own back. Grow within yourself and just learn to say NO.
Quit the friends who don’t make time for you. Quit the family thats only family through blood and not love. Quit the job, the relationships, Quit anything that doesn’t make you feel 100%. No one deserves to feel like they’re not needed. If someone can’t see your worth, LEAVE.
There’s absolutely nothing wrong with leaving something that doesn’t help you grow, keeps you happy, or anything that doesn’t respect you.
I have so much to look forward to in 2020, my business and my blog are both growing, i’m moving house (they’ll be lots of home posts on my insta @BasicBee) I’m starting to cook again more and looking to travel again. I’ve signed so many deals with new people for 2020 and I honestly can’t wait to get started.
Don’t get me wrong, leaving stuff behind is HARD, I for one cannot handle change in the slightest, I don’t like it, I can’t handle it and I personally avoid it at all costs. I guess now i’ve realised that change isn’t always a bad thing and sometimes change is for the better.
Everyone always says “New Year, New Me” and I always thought that was one of the cheesiest things i’ve ever read or listened to, but now I kind of get it. You need to take 2020 as a new year and a new start, buy a diary, realise that it really is a blank book and you can do whatever you want to do.
It’s amazing how much you can realise in a short amount of time and after talking to some amazing people this weekend I can honestly say i’m tired, and i’m so ready for a change.