Merry Christmas, & Welcome back to my little corner of the internet.
This is probably the shortest but quickest post on here to date, but you know when you really just need to get things off your chest?
That’s me right now.
Things have been totally and utterly shit lately, and no matter what I do, I can’t shift this horrible feeling.
This is what I’ve learnt:
“Everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they’re right. You believe lies so eventually you learn to trust no one but yourself; and sometimes good things can fall apart so better things can fall together.”
I just want to be happy. Genuinely and utterly happy. I don’t want to argue with why things are important to me, I don’t want to scream and shout to be heard, and I don’t want to be disappointed anymore. I want to go to sleep happy, I don’t want this feeling in the pit of my stomach anymore.
I’ve grown so much in the last few weeks, and especially the last couple of days. I’m strong and I’m brave.
I promise, my 2020 promise, too myself and everyone else is that I’m going to be happy, deeply and utterly happy.